Mutants

Friday, July 07, 2006

heyz. it's been some time =D a lot happened over the past week i think.

first, last fridae. we went to watch superman together. yeah. the 10 of us. Andy, kiat, yang, MJ, JH, stand, billy, nut, cheukyin and me. we occupied on row at cwp. had to go down to cwp in the morning to get the tickets cause it was running out fast. it's a good show =D not bad. all went home after that. oh yah, we got yang's present too. hard to choose though. next day had training. can't remember what happened next.

but sunday was my bdae. haha. guess you didn't remember it huh? but there are other who did. and i really appreciated it. woke up in the morning and had tuition then by that time i guess only a few people remembered. sobx. i though all my frens forgot liao. haha. then afternoon plae com with myself. no one want to plae with me sia. all dunno go where. all missing from online. haha. then afternoon came. was playing game with aaron online then suddenly at about 6pm i hear 'Happy Bdae!' from outside my house. haha. Andy, yang, MJ, kiat, JH, Billy, and stand all came. even though it was a bit late buy the whole time was packed with fun. hehe. we slacked around a bit. then wanted to watch dvd, but the dvd player spoil =( in the meanwhile JH ordered our usual bite. Pizza. Canadian Pizza. buy 2 for the price of 1. and how many did he order? 3. so 6 boxes came. omg. 6 boxes for 11 people. in the end we still had 1 box left as my father still bought bbq chicken. following, we watched some tv. and drank some cough syrup and green juice. =P then we played the whole nite till about 1. haha. guess wad were playing? many games sia. heart attack, murderer, bear and hunter, guess the murderer. haha. can't stop laughing and playing. it was funny too. buy 1am everyone was already tired. furthermore they had to attend school the next day. but billy and me still had our youth day!!. yeah.

that's all for that part of the story. next comes the worse.. got back most of my mid year papers. can't say i was happy about it. infact i was damn disappointed. i failed my chinese and physics papers. and all boarderline for the other subjects. yet to take back econs and GP. i actually couldn't believe that i failed my chinese cause i really put in a lot of effort. sometimes i think why do i even bother. i though the paper was rather easy though. haIz. still had training on that day. so initially i didn't wanted to go. was really not in the mood. but still went. i completed my training just being motivated by the thought that today was yang's bdae. so i was really looking forward to completing the training and going over to celebrate yang's bdae. but as usual, the training did not manage to end on time. why? ask the person in charge, not me.

went over to my grandma's house for dinner. then went home to bath then went to sp to collect the cake then went to yang's house. met up with Andy, Stand, MJ, JH too. really don't know what to say cause it's the first time we were doing something like this for yang. we talked a bit. joked around then cut the cake. we asked yang to open his present too. haha. it was funny man. first we could see that our little trick was successful. but i guess he was rather surprised when he saw the other side of the coin. could tell that he was quite happy too. then we all left at about 10.10pm. went back too. =D

thurs in sch had chinese a level oral. again i studied like siao. but none of the topics i studied on came out. just my luck. then had training again. left at about 7.20pm. then had to take the bus back cause my father was busy. i toook me quite some time to get to my grandma's house for dinner. by the time i had reached there, it was already 8.40. then i went home to sleep.

todae. was freaking horrible. on thurs after training L said we are going to have running after the sports dae. i was like 'what? another training?' i was really looking forward to fridae so that i could rest but.. what the hell man. i was rather pissed. then he spoke about some people wanting to come down on fridae. then he talked like as if everyone is coming doing. when in fact, a few of us were quite unwilling too. i looked a JS then shaked my head. he knows what i'm thinking. but i decided not to come anyway. they kept asking me to come down. give L some face. i mean what the hell lor. he doesn't even give us any face, why should we man. i'm also already half dead. he should go through the same training as us then he'll know where the breaking point is. back to sports day. wasn't too bad. but was kinda angry when they suddenly subsituted me for the cca race. i was really looking forward to it. so you could tell i was pissed. wth lor. suddenly sub me without telling me first hand. summore had to wait for me to find out myself. ddon't you think it's unfair to me. i didn't even express that i was unwilling to run. furthermore the person who sub me was the captain. captain so waD? can do what you like? yeah go ahead. since i'm kinda good with him i might as well let it go. he's the captain anyway. i can't do much.

went off my my class the first time to go plae lan at amk. then the captain called me and told me that today's training was compulsory. fk u la. last min say. i think he was trying to bluff me too. cause my partner was going but i was not. so he wanted me to go and row with my partner. face it la. it's my personal decision whether i want to go or not. it's already very dispecable for anyone to use such an underhand method, furthermore the captain. but i really don'tknow the truth yet. i'll find out tml. sometimes i really don't know what they are thinking man. making all these decisions without consent from the others. aren't we supposed to work as a team? since that's the kind of attitude i'm receiving, i might as well return it back to them. the real reason why i joined kayakin is just because of the participation in the sport. not competitively. maybe it's my fault that i took up the cca in the first place. but i don't think that it really should be so serious in terms of the competition. we are humans afterall. not some kind of energizer machine. what makes L think that we can take the training when i doubt he himself can do it. it's not that i don't respect him but should didn't respect be earned? you don't gain respect just by pushing people too much and making them think that everything is for their own good. sad to say, it doesn't work that well anymore. i don't think he even respects our personal decision. some times people do think only for their own cause. for the school maybe? i recon school are really over competitive sometimes. for what? for that one or 2 extra points? is it worth it? for the school maybe. but what about the people? i don't think that any principal has once asked their sports team if they needed a break or are doing well. they just want to know if they clinched the gold or silver or bronze award. that's it. prove me wrong.

my view is that teachers in charge of cca should also join in the full activity. being the facilitator they can thus be more efficient in organising the activity and managing the people. rather than just pushing blindly. i guess for me, this is the only way someone like L will then be able to gain respect from me.

it doesn't always have to be the students who have to 'obey' and listen to the teachers. sometimes the teachers themselves have to lower their heads be it bald or not to go down to the lower level to listen to what the students' hearts.

that's all i have to say, whether some one reads or not. i guess it's not too late for me. i still have the final personal decision on leaving the team if i think that's best for me.

bUaiz =D

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